THAT DADDY BOND

I often get asked what do I love most about being a mum, there really are endless amounts to love. I can't think of one thing that I don't love about being mum but I do know what my absolute favourite thing is... it's seeing the father daughter bond between my husband and my baby girl.

It's something I never had and still don't have with my dad. He isn't apart of my life anymore and he's never met Willow. It's something I think about quite often but I have accepted and come to terms with the fact that having a relationship with him caused me more hurt and pain than what it was actually worth. I utterly envy and adore seeing the way Darius dotes over Willow, he's a proud father, seeing his affection and love towards her with everything he has is something I cherish so very much. It makes me very emotional, in a happy way of course when I see the way he looks at her, how she touches his heart and brings out the inner child and the soft side in him. It's hard not to get teary - just as I am right now writing this. The bond they have and the relationship they will continue to have together every day is so important to me as I know it is to Darius too.

To this day, Darius has never met his father; he doesn't know who he is or what he looks like. He often feels as though half of his identity is missing in a way. I know he take's his role as a dad seriously but he's having fun with it too. He doesn't really have a father figure to go by in terms of knowing what he does and doesn't want to be as a dad, other than wanting to be part of his child's life. For me, never having my dad around, having him in and out of my life constantly, I never want to put Willow though feeling abandoned or alone in any way.

So that's the thing I love most about being a mum, the bond between my two favourite people in the entire world. And that's the beauty of having a family of your own, you get to create the family that you didn't have or wished you had. Willow is our world, she's the center of our lives and we would do absolutely anything and everything for her to ensure her growth is within a positive, stable, happy, healthy and loving environment.

It's such a wonderful feeling to know that some of the best days of our lives haven't even happened yet.

KB xx